It’s back. Or never left.

Or maybe it is something entirely new.  Regardless, I have a brain tumor.

Galapagos Tortoise Poo, 2006

After six weeks of balance issues and constant nausea, I went to my ENT who ordered lots of tests, starting with an MRI.  And there it was.  2 x 2.1 x 3.6 cm tumor in the part of the brain that controls movement, balance, and coordination. (Imagine a list of obscenities here…)

Things have been moving very quickly since then.  The most depressing information came from a neurosurgeon:  too deep to operate (it’s smack in the middle of the brain) and too big to do “gamma knife” (focused radiation).  He suspects I am headed towards “standard radiation” which I understand to be the whole brain.  What? I can’t afford to lose healthy brain cells!

I’m hoping that my radiation oncologist will disagree and attempt the focused radiation anyway.  We’ll see.

I think back on the previous 32 posts I have done about my 2020 adventure with breast cancer.  I included thoughts of love and gratitude and beauty – a lot of sappy stuff.  I may return to that later.  In the meantime, I am just ticked.  And afraid.  But as a friend said, you can now use the “I have a brain tumor” card! 

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9 thoughts on “It’s back. Or never left.

  1. Debbie, I am so sorry to read this post. You are the strongest person I know, and I have no doubts that you will get through this. With your strong will and sense of humor, you’ll show this nugget who is boss. It might not always be easy, but we are all here to help you along. Keep thinking positively. Sending you love!

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  2. Debbie, I am holding you in the Light and will say a Misheberach for you. A Jewish prayer of healing can’t hurt. It was so great to see you so strong and full of Light a few months ago; may you feel that same way again the next time our paths cross. ❤️

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  3. Oh Debbie I’m so sorry to read this, but I thank you for letting us know and for sharing your journey. You mean so much to your community. Your openness, humor and strength as you faced your last bout of cancer was a gift to us all. We are here for you now.

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  4. Dear Debbie,
    This news is truly sad to read but I believe that God will reward your positive attitude by answering our prayers for your healing. You are a lovely lady🙏🏾

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  5. Debbie,
    I have come back to this several times today. Hoping each time that I read it wrong. You say “ Imagine a list of obscenities here…)”. Frankly. I am impressed that this blog entry isn’t just an endless repeating list of expletives —-Several times today, I have found myself on your behalf muttering “what the F—-?!” Shedding tears of anger and sadness. I think you have beyond earned the right to feel however you feel and express whatever you would like to express. You do not have to love this one. But I hope you do continue to believe in yourself and remember how strong and amazing you are!!!!!

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  6. Dear Debbie,

    I am so sorry to hear about your brain tumor. I am thinking of you and I hope you can get a treatment and a quick recovery. You are a survivor!! I am not sure about what’s it’s worth but check that doctor: Stanislaw Burzynski. Looks like he has been successful with brain tumors.

    Be strong!!
    Love ❤ ❤
    Marianne

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  7. Debbie,
    So sorry to learn this news but I actually feel a tad (more) sorry for the tumor, it picked the wrong damn brain!! I KNOW you will fight this with all fervor and strength as you’ve done in the past, when faced with challenge. May the love that engulfs you, and the strength that is embedded in you give you the resolve to forge ahead. In prayer for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Quanti

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